Saturday, August 28, 2010


This article was brought to my attention
buy Henry Rollins
i decided to take bits & pieces of it that rang true to me

I believe that the definition of definition is reinvention.
To not be like your parents.
To not be like your friends.
To be yourself.


When I was young I had no sense of myself. All I was, was a product of all the fear and humiliation I suffered.
As stupid at it seems now, I wanted to talk like society thought i should, dress like models, & carry myself with the ease the way they did

JOSELYNNE:I always followed the trends, partied, and had friends that were "cool" but not great people. Though i never "struggled" to fit in, i wanted to be the IT girl.

I didnt really find myself until i moved across the country. It was only then that my real ADULT life's journey began.

In my search I can across Alexandria Meekcoms, my angel.
I met her right as my focus was transitioning from fashion to nutrition.
There was an instant connection. She made me feel special.
I learned through her kindness and ALPHA personality,
how to let people in that deserved my love and attention.
It was a partnership, a friendship and i feel & hope
an equal balance of admiration.
We became inseparable & worked together
to become stronger & healthier.
I could sense the power/confidence inside my body growing. I could feel it.
I felt strong. It was the first time I can remember having that strong of a sense of myself. I was doing something and no one could ever take it away. You couldn't say s--t to me.
And Alex made DAMN SURE everybody knew.
I used to fight the pain, but recently this became clear to me: pain is not my enemy; it is my call to greatness.
In using the word pain, I mean doing things that make me uneasy, steppin gout of my comfort zone......growing spiritually & emotionally.

PAIN: losing my best friend to death,
another to drugs
and too many to insecurity
PAIN: is expereiecing a loss, battling with your ego
PAIN: taking your physical body to the limits and pushing a step farther
PAIN: is having your heart broken

i got through all of these things by hitting the gym
and re directing my focus
to myself & my health

Most training injuries involving the ego.
& most illnesses involve emotion
A very dear friend of mine brought this to my attention
probably 4 years ago now...i didnt get it
I finally learned this year with my knee injury.
Through the recovery process
I came to peace with my body.
Yes I want to look good.
Yes I want to have abs, a perfect butt, and amazing legs.
But more importantly I wanted to FEEL good.
You can have the aesthetic things,
but without a presence, without self love, no one will notice.
When you achieve the balance of self love and physical health,
you wont care who is looking
You will be fulfilled by YOU
and can look inward for validation.

Dedication to a healthy lifestyle will teach you a little lesson in restraint and self-control.

I have never met a truly strong person who didn't have self-respect. I think a lot of inwardly and outwardly directed contempt passes itself off as self-respect: the idea of raising yourself by stepping on someone's shoulders instead of doing it yourself. When I see guys working out for cosmetic reasons, I see vanity exposing them in the worst way, as cartoon characters, billboards for imbalance and insecurity. Strength reveals itself through character.

DONT GET ME WRONG: i dont not look down upon those that spend endless hours in the gym perfecting there physic for a living. but it is not for me. i want to learn about my self through interaction with others, i want to eat dark chocolate occasionally. i have learned that my body performs better when i place a little less demand on it. i think in a way it thanks me. I want to be a role model for women and you girls. they deserve a role model that is not deprived of balance. Discipline & Dedication

Muscle mass does not always
equal strength. Strength is kindness and sensitivity. Strength is understanding that your power is both physical and emotional. That it comes from the body and the mind. And the heart.

Learning about what you're made of
is always time well spent,
and I have found no better teacher.
Life is capable of driving you out of your mind.
The way it all comes down these days,
it's some kind of miracle if you're not insane.
People have become separated from their bodies.
They are no longer whole.

I see them move from their offices to their cars
and on to their suburban homes.
They stress out constantly,
they lose sleep, they eat badly.
And they behave badly.
Their egos run wild;
they become motivated by
that which will eventually give them
a massive stroke.

I believe that when the body is strong,
the mind thinks strong thoughts.
Fitness is the best antidepressant
I have ever found.
There is no better way to fight weakness
than with strength.
Once the mind and body have been awakened to their true potential,
it's impossible to turn back.

thank you alex, for being my driving force and a constant reminder the ALPHA status is something needs to be attained on a daily basis.
(i will pull my head outta my ass)

WORK HARD and dont forget to PLAY

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