Stillness

my favorite person once said to me,

get outside, lay in the grass, stare up at the sky & wait for the earth to move.

for most of my life i've chosen not to deal with certain things, certain emotions or situations.

i would keep myself busy, walk away or even choose not to react.

most people that know me, know that i will obsessively clean when i am upset

...it distracts me.

meditation, yoga, therapy, alone time.....

all these self soothing outlets commit you to stillness

they commit you to the participate in your thoughts & feelings.

to be present.

when you actively engage your mind with self work,

you can achieve stillness of your thoughts

you attain the tools that will differentiate beneficial positive thoughts 
from riffraff

over the last few months i have been looking more deeply inward

a lot has happened.....

 mostly between my ears, but that is the first step right?

my biggest focus as been perception

take a minute to think about how YOU PERSONALLY would define perception

per·cep·tion

[per-sep-shuh n] Show IPA

noun

1.

the act or faculty of apprehending by means of the senses or of the mind; cognition; understanding.

2.

immediate or intuitive recognition or appreciation, as of moral, psychological, or aesthetic qualities; insight; intuition; discernment: an artist of rare perception.

Why do we do what we do?

How do our personalities develop

What is acceptable socially to express? 

a woman told a story last week about giving a 3 yr old a present & her not reacting graciously.  the mother apologized & the woman stopped her.  let your daughter be who she is & accept her opinion.  the little girl shouldnt be responsible to pretend she likes something to make someone ELSE comfortable.

AH HA MOMENT FOR ME

what is truly authentic anymore?

are we so programed to social standards & society's idea of being cordial that we arent allowing ourselves to have emotional reactions?

BINGO - there goes one layer of my onion that just peeled off

FEEL WHAT YOU WANT TO FEEL 

Find out what that is.

Be. 

Just that BE who you are, 

open, honest, without regret or self judgement.

If you are constantly pretending, how can happiness find you?

  
in STILLNESS lies the authentic you.

be still with your thoughts

listen with your intuition

you don't need to have all the answers

in this moment you are perfect